I heart faces contest!- Beautiful eyes!

Went for a walk around downtown Charleston and stopped for some ice cream!  She was loving it!  

For all wondering minds!  This is whats going on right now in our lives.  I really don't like to talk about, I don't like to explain it, I am mad, I am sad, I don't understand why, I am over it!!!!

• We had an HSG dye test done April 11 to check my tubes and make sure I had no blockages that was causing us to not get pregnant.  Everything looked fine.  They said I was more fertile after "cleaning everything out"
• Jason went to China for two weeks, but not before I ovulated.
• I started cramping about a week before I was supposed to start, which I always do. Figured I wasn't preggo. Never thought anything about.
• I was supposed to start my period Thursday.  Had big plans hoping I was pregnant and buying a "Big Sister" shirt and taking balloons to airport to surprise Daddy that we were pregnant.
• Wednesday morning I was changing one of the little girls diapers I babysit and the smelled made me so sick I threw up in my mouth and and to run to bathroom.  I thought hmmm maybe I am pregnant because the smell of something made me so sick. Took a test it was negative. Got on with my week not surprised I wasn't pregnant.
• Jason comes up Saturday and I still hadn't started but my period.  We go to breakfast on Sunday for his bday and on the way home I say "Should I buy another test?"  He said he will run back out later and get one.
• Later that afternoon he runs out and gets a test and I take it we stand there waiting for it to be negative and hes reading to see what exactly  a positive looks like and bamm there ya go!!! I handed it to him and said Happy Birthday!!  IT WAS POSITIVE!!
• We were in shock to say the least!  I had never been so excited about my boobs hurting and my stomach cramping!
• Monday I went to doctor for blood test to confirm the two test I took at home.  We went out that evening and I started getting so tired and was falling asleep in the car. I went to bed at 8 that night!  Once again, never been so happy to be so tired just because I knew it was because I was pregnant. 
• Tuesday- got the call from doctor confirming I was pregnant, but levels were really low and they put me on progesterone pills.  She also told me there was a chance of miscarriage. 
• Went back for another count of Wednesday and my HCG levels went from a 52 to a 53.  They are supposed to double every other day.  They knew I was going to miscarry after that.  It was nothing they could or done or nothing I could have done.  It just wasn't mean to be.
• I started miscarrying Thursday night.  
• Now we are right where we started...only child! :(
• When we say we don't want to talk about it....we don't want to talk about. Maybe we will....maybe we wont, but until then it's something that we can't bring ourselves to talk about with others.

Makeover!

Well as you can tell I have a new look! I won this look at a contest on The Drama Mama blog.  I have been trying to get myself back into blogging and thought if I won I would start blogging again!  Well I won and here I am blogging! Especially because my dad reminds me all the time that the last time I blogged was like October 4th!  So since October 4th lots of things have been going on!  Here are a few pictures...I tried uploading more but it was taking forever so I gave up.  Thought I would share these and get back at doing this better another day!  I will add more pictures and let you in on whats been going on!  I just hope this time it doesnt take another 5 of so months to come back! 

Im back!

I have been gone for awhile I know!  Life around here is a little hectic right now.  As we all know school started back, which means I am in full swing of babysitting.  I have two extra kids all day everyday, one is 13 months and the other is 16 months.  I also have another little boy that comes Tuesday and Thursday until noon and he is 22 months!  Did I mention that I have a two year old running around????  Lets just say my house is always a mess with toys, we have lots of screaming going on, and lots of time outs around here!!

My photography business is kinda crazy as well.  I didn't really think it would take off like this but it sure is keeping me busy.  It is a little overwhelming at times because I am with the kids all day and then either have a photoshoot in the evening or have to work on pictures.  I am a little overwhelmed at times and very sleepy!!! 

Bailey is growing up to be something else!  She talks ALL the time!  She talks back too!  Thats really great!  Some Bailey sayings:

She walked into the kitchen this weekend and looked at Jason and said "I wanna go shopping"  I taught her well!

She asks all the time "What chu doing?"
We were walking downstairs and looked at a pile of laundry and I asked her "will you do laundry for me?"  She replied with "I do laundry when I'm older"
Everytime you ask her if shes sleepy, or mad, or anything she replies..."NO I'm happy"

She has really gotten into playing with our phones.  It was a fight all day and evening for her to play games and watch videos on our phones.  So we decided to get her an IPOD touch!    She loves the thing.  She calls it her phone.  She knows how to go in and out of different games and play some of them better than me.  She can go into youtube and watch different videos.  The kid really amazes me with the things she can do on there.  It definatly was worth the money!